I don't know if it's just me, just finding it harder and harder to blog lately. Still no motivation. I am very thankful for all the opportunities given during this process. I don't want to appear ungreatful in any way. What I'm going through has nothing to do with the contest or anyone involved. Just need to find my mojo in a big way! Everyone is doing a great job. Good luck everyone :)

So another week down...not too sure how things are going. Since I've been back at work, my energy level is just drained completely. I am eating right for the most part but I've slacked on the exercising in the mornings :( So today I am feeling ultra defeated. Going to keep at it though and try to get into the swing of things. I've pretty much felt this way for the past week.

So I feel like this week was very successful :) Eating right, exercising and even made it to Cabanas Tuesday night! Must say, by far the filet was the most amazing thing I have had there to date! So here's to a just as successful weekend. Boot camp tomorrow morning will make it complete. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

So this whole thing has been a lot harder than I thought. There's so much more mental than physical when it comes to a life change. I'm really really trying.

Although my numbers this weigh in were less than desired, I know I'm doing SOMETHING right as far as what I'm putting in my mouth. My doctor took me off one medicine and decreased another. So at least something positive is happening :) Trying to focus on the positives. I do want to send a shout out to everyone in the contest... GREAT JOB! Don't give up!

Today I'm feeling like a failure. I have fallen off the wagon and with having a new schedule have found it hard to get back into a routine of morning workouts. I'm not eating terrible, but not perfect. I know it's all about hopping back on and going forward, but this is just how I feel today. Our first weigh in is coming up and I feel like I've panicked and gone the opposite way of where I'm supposed to be going. The goal seems so far away! I'm not giving up, just having these feelings today and putting it out there because well, that's what we are supposed to do lol. Hopefully by acknowledging them, I can get past them.

So I've not had any huge weight loss achievements to speak of as of yet, but that's ok. I know I am changing my habits and I'm getting stronger by eating better and exercising. Even if I don't "win" the contest, I still win. I'm in this for the long haul and for the weight to stay off, not fast results and a temporary win. I've recently discovered that losing weight is as much mental as it is physical. If you don't take care of the mental part of it, they physical is only a quick fix.

Boot camp tonight! Last week only two of us showed up for the 10:00 class on Saturday. Jessica rocked it out and worked our butts off! It was awesome! I was definitely feeling that workout for days! lol This boot camp is a wonderful opportunity! I can't imagine why more people aren't taking advantage of it. You guys just don't know what you're missing!

I fell off the wagon pretty hard yesterday. Having a hard time with not beating myself up over it. I had been busy and gone all day and didn't have any healthy snacks on hand ready to use so we got fast food. Could have been worse but definitely could have been better. It didn't even taste good anymore because I've gotten so used to eating better. I was just mad at my lack of self control and the fact that I wasted all those calories and fat on that junk! That's exactly what it is... JUNK. But...I did move along and continue with my new habit at the next meal. It just went to show me how important it is to always have stuff ready at home for the end of a busy or long day. Lesson learned!

This morning is boot camp, I'm still very sore from Thursday night so I must've been doing it right! It's weird, but every time I move and feel a twinge of pain, it makes me smile and reminds me that I'm doing this for me :) Still have to start logging EVERYTHING. That is my goal for this week to log everyday. I will keep my phone with me and log everything BEFORE I put it in my mouth as my good friend (Deanna Sanford, who is also in the contest)suggested.